Harder than I thought but going strong!

So after my last post, I visited the health center and began my journey. Since food is like my drug I began lessening my portions. Monday I went back to the Health center and managed to lose 2 lbs inna week, and honestly I didn't put much effort into it, I just stopped eating after 7pm and drank more water. Yesterday I began the Beachbody Insanity workout. I tell you it definitely wasn't easy and it shows you how out of shape you are. I started off well for like the first 2 minutes, then the heavy breathing began, I felt like a 800 lb woman was sitting on my chest. And that was just the warm-up. Then Sean T. (Insanity video) continues to tell you "Push, Push, work harder, let's go," I'm like any harder and imma go into cardiac arrest. That had to be the most workout I've done in like 2 months. But It does feel good to be conscious of what you're putting in your body, and staying active. I feel motivated and what continues to motivate me is all the old pictures of when I wasn't as big. And all the clothes that are gonna fit me again as I lose the weight. Today was a successful day, I got a lot accomplished and managed to have my 5 meals without being off schedule.WOOHOO!! It was so tempting though, especially when I drank my coffee with no dessert. Only had carbs once today, mainly ate protein and salad. Not fun, and as I sit here writing this I'm so freakin hungry!!! It's taking me a lot not to tear up my refrigerator, and devour every single thing inside and around it. LMAOO, it sounds funny but its so true. Besides that, I'm extremely tired, my body is in literal shock it hurts to even fart. I caught a cramp in my arm while I was writing this, and I'm dead serious. I worked hard and did my best to follow the workout but I have a long road ahead of me, even though I refuse to lose sight of my goal.

Reflection:
So Imma dreamer like everyone else, but I like to call them visions. I know that if you believe you can do something, you will do everything in your power to accomplish that goal. "Querer es Poder." I want to do this so bad, that I am going to do it. I've noticed that at times people are not as supportive as they come off to be, they say one thing, but their actions show you another. The people you expect to support you will be the first to put you down or try and deter you from your goal. But not this time, God is on my side, and as long as I have him, strength, determination and a vision Imma make it. I won't think of how far my journey will be, I will take it a day at a time, and thats what will get me through. I sat down to write today and I asked myself three questions: I said "Ayaguna (My fraternal name) why is it that you're really trying to go back down to 200 lbs?" Then I asked "What do you expect at the end of all of this after you lose the 200 lbs?" and my last question "Can you stand to look in the mirror, or pass your reflection without looking self consciously or in discust, and can you continue to hear the "Your gaining weight" comments, the fat jokes, the scoldings, and the embarassments?" I didn't answer myself because I heard a Psychology major say that means you're crazy, but I feel as though actions speak louder than words, as cliche as it may sound, its the truth. So from this moment on I shall only speak through actions. Thanks for listening and feel free to comment!!!!! Hasta luego!!!!!