Back on Track

Hello supporters, I would like to apologize for not updating my blog in about two weeks but I have had a lot of stuff going on. So where to begin, I've only lost 3 lbs since the last blog I wrote. It pisses me off and I get frustrated because I can be doing so much better. The effort hasn't been there, what I thank god for, is that I haven't gained any weight, so I'm maintaining pretty well, at least I think so. So Let's see the week before last I weighed myself and I didnt lose any weight but I didnt gain any either. It was a bitter sweet feeling. I found myself discouraged for a quick second. I binge ate, everytime I say this it makes me so angry at myself. I caught myself though, and stopped eating. I got up and left my house. After my walk and some time to think I got back on track. I've had a lot on my plate lately, and no I'm not talking about food. I had 3 midterms and now I have 1 oral report, a 7 page analytical paper, and 3 research assignments all due within the next 3 weeks. So I've spent a great deal of my time studying and doing research for these assignments. And the 3 day-long  drinking binges for the last 3 weekends definitely didn't help my cause. I've pretty much just been watching what I eat and also at what time I eat. I've been drinking a lot of water and trying to stay busy. This week I began walking. I have some walking buddies, so its pretty fun, in about 2 weeks we'll start running. Last week I weighed myself and lost 2 more lbs and this week 1 lb, but I want to see more of a difference, and I want to do it naturally, so that I don't have to go through this again.

Reflection
On a more personal note, my mind is still there, I know I'm overweight and I haven't given up, just things of life that have taken precedence over others. My mind is clear and I have my goal in mind along with others I wish to accomplish as well. I am starting to live my life as I should've a long time ago, and the way I'm doing that is by taking the focus off of everyone else and placing it on myself. It feels good to do stuff that are benefiting me at the end of the day. I'm learning that if I'm not completely happy with whats going on with me, I have no business trying to help others with whats going on with them. And quite honestly, I'm kind of tired of caring. I am an adult and when it hits you, that you're an adult, you realize that there is really no time to waste. So much starts happening, and you have to worry about how you're going to deal with and overcome each one. So I think my best bet is to take care of myself, can't go wrong their because who comes out winning? On another note I got a job at Macy's as an assistant to the supervisor. I'm pretty siked. Well supporters I hope you continue to follow me on my very long journey, and I promise I'm not going to go missing again.